Kelsey and I go to Franny’s house for dinner with all the girls. It was so nice to not stress for a night and eat some of Chef K’s yummy food. 

Kelsey was super quiet and not very social as always. Before dinner she was complaining that Whit and I always laugh together and that her and I don’t. She is right and I wish Kels and I laughed more but we have very different sense of humors. Whit and I get each other. 

Later that week I planned a sweet dinner for us and right before we were getting ready I had a weird feeling Kelsey drank the night before. She was in Long Beach with her family and her phone died all night. I looked at her and said, “Did you drink?”  She said looking me in the eyes, “YES!” I was so hurt and mad. I felt like her word meant nothing and that this whole thing was a joke. I realized then that Kelsey was really doing all this for me and not for herself. If she wants to go drink she can, just not with me. I had to be the one to ask her, she couldn’t even tell me her self. That hurt. 

Leaving Kelsey was one of the hardest things. I hated it. I worry about her more than she will ever know. I always will but this was needed. We had to break up for both of us. I know she couldn’t understand it all then but I know one day she will. We will always love each other. I wish her the best and pray that she gets a hold of her life and makes the most of it. She is an amazing girl who has a lot of growing up to do. 

Whit invited me over to keep my mind off of things. I love her and Alyssa is one of my closest friends, so I said yes. They made an inseminator for Cori and Kacy. I had to be there to see them present this miracle.  The night went great and the girls loved their new gift. I hope they had some fun with it later that night. Whit and I have always had chemistry and love each other very much. There was some flirting going on and it just felt right. I left to go home but we were texting each other a lot. So I decided to come back. HAHAHAA, for the one, the only, “the Whitney”. She will always hold a special place in my heart. I am so lucky to have her in my life and yes it felt good to finally just be me. With her I can just be that.