So my friend Jesi was in town and thank God! The two week wait between insemination and finding out if you are pregnant is crazy! I was hyper-sensitive to everything going on in my body. The question of was I or wasn’t I consumed me. Her coming into town was a perfect distraction from the crazy person I had become. We decided to watch my friend do her Roller Derby thing. We had such a blast and it was so nice to take a night off from all of the wondering and worrying.
Everyone told me it could take a while to get pregnant, but I secretly hoped that I was special. I really tried not to get my hopes up but I couldn’t help it. I figured all of the elements were there, why wouldn’t it work? Realizing that it didn’t take was hard. Not only was I not pregnant, but it also made me realize that this may not be as easy as I had hoped. Coming to terms with the fact that this could take months or even years was heartbreaking. We are so ready to begin our family, so all we can do is continue trying. Maybe it will take months or years, but in the end I know it will have all been worth the wait.