An ego blow of an episode.
First night out with Barbs:
I was completely caught off guard when Chas, started hurling insults at me like that. I had never met her before and honestly had never been insulted by a complete stranger. I guess when you mix cameras and alcohol, you evoke some interesting responses. I tried to remain calm as long as I could but there is only so far you can push someone till they break. I shouldn’t have sunk down to that level, but I was so furious, “my little man” syndrome came out. Ultimately, it’s not about the girls you get, it’s about the person you are, the friends you have, and the respect you have for others.
Trash take out:
It hurts me to watch, and I really do not feel like commenting on what happened as it is too hurtful. Everyone makes their own decisions; I don’t know why she felt the need to throw my stuff out after I told her I would come in the morning, but some people are easily influenced. I never would have done that to her but then again I’m sure she would say the same about some of the decisions I’ve made. In the end, we are different people who handle situations very differently. Francine may always have a special place in my heart, but I’d be lying if I didn’t feel hurt by seeing her read my text messages aloud, not standing up for me, and throwing out my stuff. However, as you all know I’ve done my fair share to her as well. Perhaps we can call a Peace Treaty!
In regards to what I said in the text messages to Francine, I absolutely have no problems with the other girls - I was just extremely frustrated with the events of the night before and was confused on why it had happened. The context of those messages was airing my frustration to Francine and Chas, not about the other girls. I felt attacked and no one had my back besides Barbs.
I was happy to have Barbs there during this difficult time, my NYC friends know me and stand behind me through thick and thin. Coming out to LA has made me appreciate them more then I ever could have imagined! Yayaya V GANG!
Gotta put the girl drama behind me and focus on my website.