August 2011
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CORI ON S2: EPISODE 9
Wow! Last episode! I first just want to say this has been such an amazing experience and we have been so lucky to have shared our story. I have learned so much about myself and making babies, and this experience has only strengthened the relationship Kacy and I already have.
So much happened in this episode! I think my favorite was the ceremony Kacy put together. When you try and try to have a...
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WHITNEY ON S2: EPISODE 9
Again we have come to the end of a very interesting ride. Through the tears, fights, laughs, sex, and love, we have told our stories. Although they are constantly changing and our lives are constantly evolving, sometimes taking unexpected turns, one thing remains constant and that is the openness that exists among these women with whom I am so lucky to share this experience with. It can be hard,...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 9
Let the new chapter begin. Whit is my friend, and will always be my friend. I am sure I am not the only person who has been vulnerable after a break up. My whole life is in my hands now with no one to look after me but myself. I am excited for my life and what’s to come. I am sober and focused on my line . All I want more than anything is for my and Vanessa’s dream to come true. We have put so...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 9
So friends, we have come to the infamous last episode. I write this with sorrow in my heart that our time has come to an end. This journey has been long, but ultimately rewarding, and that is thanks to all of you. We took deep breaths, shared our stories, bared our souls – and with a loud, resounding cheer, you have applauded our normalcy, our intense and passionate love, and our...
July 2011
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 8
Roh, roh. It was coming down to crunch time, as coming out to my parents is something I’ve managed to avoid for God knows how long… It’s probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to face since I’m the kind of person who goes to great lengths to avoid confrontation, especially when I know it might hurt the ones I love the most. At the end of the day, the issue at hand is really about love and...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 8
Kelsey and I go to Franny’s house for dinner with all the girls. It was so nice to not stress for a night and eat some of Chef K’s yummy food.
Kelsey was super quiet and not very social as always. Before dinner she was complaining that Whit and I always laugh together and that her and I don’t. She is right and I wish Kels and I laughed more but we have very different sense of humors....
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 8
Well, this episode proves that Cori and I do argue. What makes our arguments different is that we know that in the end, we will eventually have to come together, resolve the issue, and move forward together. This has been the hardest process, harder than her or I ever imagined when we embarked on the journey. There have been so many times when we just feel at the mercy of other things. Cori is...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 8
I am so very proud of Francine for finally realizing and coming to terms with telling her parents she’s gay. In all my years of knowing her, this is something I know she struggled with daily. Yoko, is a special woman and she only wants the best for her daughter, but it’s hard when the culture doesn’t except your child’s lifestyle. Knowing Francine the way I do, I can only imagine how...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 7
I am not a religious person, despite what you saw on tonight’s episode. I do not claim to be Catholic, I do not attend church regularly, and I do not adhere to a strict doctrine of Christianity. I am, however, blessed with a faith in the universe, and hold as a fundamental value, that love is the single greatest driver of the human spirit. If you live your love with utter love, then you will...
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 7
And welcome to the disaster piece theater… Little did I think about the domino effect my conversation with Romi would spiral into. Ok, I admit that it was a little childish of me to tell Romi what Claire had said in private about the other girls but, I was fueled by anger and at the time, upset about how her words and actions were not coinciding at all. I guess we can all say the recipe for...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 7
And round two….
Vivian’s arrival made me feel like everything was going to be ok again. She came to LA to do work on my web site, but I also wanted to show her a good time. However, some how I knew that it wasn’t going to go as smoothly as I had planned…
Preparing for the night when I knew we were going to see Francine was like being on a never ending rollercoaster ride. Having my recent ex...
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CORI ON S2: EPISODE 7
So my friend Jesi was in town and thank God! The two week wait between insemination and finding out if you are pregnant is crazy! I was hyper-sensitive to everything going on in my body. The question of was I or wasn’t I consumed me. Her coming into town was a perfect distraction from the crazy person I had become. We decided to watch my friend do her Roller Derby thing. We had such a blast and...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 7
Kelsey and I have dinner with Khristian and Franny. Franny tells me that Claire is talking crap about all of us. I’m just so annoyed that someone is assuming I just sit and play with lipstick all day. I am working my ass off and it really was insulting. Not to mention, Franny said she was putting down my friends. Just not ok to move here and talk crap about people you don’t know. Me and my...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 6
My dad passed away a few years ago from cancer, and today is the anniversary of that day. Loosing my dad was the hardest thing that has ever happened to me, and not a day goes by I don’t think of him. He was my best friend and my hero. He would have been so happy to see that I have made the decision to go sober. He would worry about me a lot when I would drink. I wish more than anything...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 6
This episode really encapsulated why Cori and chose to participate in this show. One day, our child will be able to look back and see his or her parents go through the process of bring him or her into the world. That moment, when Cori and I were holding hands, looking into each other’s eyes – all of our hopes and dreams burgeoning – that moment is so utterly precious, and it has been...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 6
The blow out continues.
When I arrived at Francine’s place and saw all of my belongings tossed out, I was filled with an overwhelming sense of frustration. I had told her very clearly the night before that I would come by and pick up everything first thing in the morning. Francine has always had an uncanny way of making things worse then they need to be. I understand she didn’t...
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 5
A man by the name of Albert Einstein once said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. A dear friend of mine reminded me of that when she noticed I was close to my breaking point - upset and crying almost every day since Claire had arrived… Yes, the situation may have been annoying, but the only thing I was capable of fixing were my...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 5
An ego blow of an episode.
First night out with Barbs:
I was completely caught off guard when Chas, started hurling insults at me like that. I had never met her before and honestly had never been insulted by a complete stranger. I guess when you mix cameras and alcohol, you evoke some interesting responses. I tried to remain calm as long as I could but there is only so far you can push someone...
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CORI ON S2: EPISODE 5
Wow, my wife is a saint. What a pain in the butt I was!
I have tried to quit smoking so many times and have tried everything! Patches, gums, books, pills. Nothing has ever worked. I was looking for a miracle and was really hoping hypnotism was it. I have talked to quite a few people and the hypnotism has completely worked for them so my hopes were high. I really told myself to just give in and...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 5
DREW!!!! I go to my best friends house Drew for dinner…Drew is my best friend and more. He is my family. From the day I met him he reminded me of my dad. My dad was my everything. My life. When he passed away 4 years ago from cancer I thought I was going to die with him. My dad was my best friend. Drew sort of took his place in some weird way in my life. He makes me feel like I have family....
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 5
If there is one thing I regret in life, it’s smoking. It was a really terrible addiction that I had for 12 years. Quitting was the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. I still struggle with it to this day. I went two years without one and then one day, right when Cori was trying to quit, I picked it up again. The pressure of giving up “crutches”, especially when you...
June 2011
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WHITNEY ON S2: EPISODE 4
It’s a tricky thing, this “love” thing…it’s unfortunate that, much like parenting, there is no right or wrong way to maneuver your way through it. I definitely have been treading into some uncharted territory with myself in dealing with my relationship with Sara but, regardless of how messy it may look, it is MY emotional dealings to be had. I appreciate my friends’ input but at the same time,...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 4
At this point, it’s such a relief to move out of Francine’s house. I was very grateful for her letting me stay there, but it was too much, too soon. My initial introduction to LA was a bit rough, but I knew I came out here for reasons other than girls - and it was time to focus on those reasons. I had just left a great job and I was eager to dive into something else. I had always dreamed...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 4
When I first met Cori, she was the unattainable girl. Beautiful, carefree, wild as the wind would take her. She had this aura about her that I connected to immediately: an inner softness that resonated deeply; so feminine, gentle and caring. Sometime I look at her and wonder – even after all these years, how I landed such an awesome woman! I have watched Cori evolve over the last five years...
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 4
It’s crazy to watch everyone you hang out with deal with her own everyday lives and struggles. Some more serious than others… (some crazier than others j/k). Some moments happy, others upsetting… My heart goes out to Rachel in this episode. Over the course of filming, we have grown closer and I feel horrible that I wasn’t there for her like I could have been; if only I knew what she was going...
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SAJDAH ON S2: EPISODE 3
Watching this week was somewhat bitter sweet. Sweet, because I’m able to relive one of the happiest times of my life; yet, not so sweet because Marissa was there to slow me down while my mother was there to shut me down! During this time, Chanel and I have spent every single moment on the phone like schoolgirls. I already knew she was absolutely gorgeous but I was learning that she was...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 3
When I first moved to LA, the tension between Francine and I was strong and I knew she wanted me out of her place after our big fight. I, in turn, was trying to be out of the house as much as possible until my place became available. That morning, she caught me on the way to the horse races, so I was in a bit of rush. Often with Francine and I, we will have big blow outs and then the next day...
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 3
OH EM GEE! Same story, different day. I was growing tired of the whole Claire situation and really needed my own space and personal life back. I wasn’t feeling like myself ever since she reappeared in my life, and honestly, I was feeling quite miserable. I was growing more and more frustrated as I also felt as though she wasn’t helping me around the house at all, (busy being always more consumed...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 3
I’ve made the decision to lead a sober lifestyle, and Kelsey is still on the same path. Since I am very vulnerable at this early stage of sobriety, I’m finding it very difficult to be in a relationship with someone who drinks.
Kelsey and I go to dinner at my very close friend Kristian’s house, and this is the first night I go out without drinking. I’m having a little bit of a...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 3
Most people have a very hard time believing that my sister and I are from the same womb. I mean, we’re night and day physically, but at our core, we are very close. I think when you are siblings of divorce, it creates a very unique bond. You see your family get torn apart before your very eyes, and “your family” becomes the two of you. That is exactly what happened with Niky and I. We are each...
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CORI ON S2: EPISODE 3
Finally, the baby batter has been purchased. Maybe now we can stop talking about it? Guess not…
Searching for our donor was such a great experience. There were so many great options and so much information about each one. Besides the obvious medical and family histories, they also had personally written essays to really help you get to know the person. We had it narrowed down to about five when...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 2
There is nothing like watching yourself make mistakes and then knowing the whole world is going to see those mistakes. Vivian and Francine both knew about each other and both of them knew why I wanted to leave New York, which was for my career and to figure out things once and for all with Francine. I had always been honest with both of them about my feelings for the other but there are no excuses...
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SAJDAH ON S2: EPISODE 2
Whitney is forever my big homie. She knows exactly how to open an episode- in a circus of Bitches…oh wait…Dogs! I kid, I kid. To be completely honest, I really hate that Whitney is going through what she’s going through. It’s a huge risk to care for someone. There is no guarantee that they’ll care for you in the same way. So I know it’s frustrating to learn that Sara may not be as emotionally...
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WHITNEY ON S2: EPISODE 2
I know I make reference to “Romeo and Juliet” lightheartedly in this episode, but in all seriousness, it is a very frustrating situation to be in, not knowing whether your heart or everything people keep saying to you is right. The obvious answer for most would be go with your heart, but how do you do that when there’s physical evidence to back it up coupled with people who are very dear to you...
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CORI ON S2: EPISODE 2
This episode was so much more fun to re-live than the last episode!
Once Kacy and I picked ourselves up from the disappointment of losing our donor we really just decided to have fun with it and explore ALL options.
So first stop, two of our closest friends, Paolo and Olivier (who are not a couple, although I think it would be really cute if they were) Since I couldn’t get any answers out of...
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 2
Wowzers. What can I say… that episode was a little hard to watch, though I did give Claire a piece of my mind (again). I was obviously overwhelmed at the time with emotions and hurt by the fact that I always had this thought in the back of my mind somewhere that Claire was my soul mate and we would someday, somehow end up happily ever after… well… reality finally hit home, and this time it was...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 2
I came in exhausted from work, hating my job and tired of being the sole provider in the relationship. Bringing home the bacon is hard work! At the time Kelsey was a good house wife and was doing what she could to help, but the stress was eating me alive. It seemed like I always needed a drink to calm my nerves and relax my mind almost nightly.
Later we met up with my mother to discuss our...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 2
In all honesty, it was a relief to move on from the previous disappointment . But we still had this nagging question, why? So in true lesbian fashion, we decided to investigate. We’d take out two of our favorite guys, get them liquored up, and get them to give us the “goods” – which, in this case, was information. I mean, we were really wondering what we had done. Did Brent think we wouldn’t...
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WHITNEY ON S2: EPISODE 1
I’m baaaaaaaaaaaack! …and back to the airport I go….whaaaaat? I suppose some of you are thinking, “Why again would Whitney ship in more girls to make her life more complicated?” To this I say, “I have no idea…” I apparently like to keep things spicy.
Rachel was my longest relationship, and for those who think I am incapable of having a relationship, this one was actually pretty healthy and...
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CLAIRE ON S2: EPISODE 1
This episode brings back a lot of difficult emotions. It’s hard to watch the person you love crying over something you’re doing. Even though Vivian and I had known for over a year that I was moving to LA, nothing can prepare you for the emotions you feel when you are about to leave a place and a person you call home. Leaving Vivian that morning was the worst; I saw our entire relationship...
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CORI ON S2: EPISODE 1
Holy moly, what a first episode! If anything, this season is definitely going to be hot…minus all of the sperm talk. Thank god for all of the incredible, beautiful women on the show who make it a lot easier to re-live all of this talk about…sperm. Lesbians should never have to ever utter that word, ugh. But, I suppose if Kacy and I are going to get anywhere with starting a family, baby batter...
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ROMI ON S2: EPISODE 1
Kelsey and I go to New York to celebrate my 29th Birthday. New York is my favorite place, so that was where I chose to celebrate. We walked around Central Park in the snow and had so much fun. It was like right out of a movie. We had never been to the snow together or taken a trip together, so it was special to me. Later that evening, we go to meet up with my very good friend Becky. Becky and I...
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KACY ON S2: EPISODE 1
When Cori and I first started discussing starting a family, we decided very early on that she would carry the child. Let me be very clear: I have no desire to be pregnant. That was never my vision of parenthood. What I would love – and what I dream about still – is being able to make a baby with Cori that is made from her and I. That was the hardest part to get over. No matter how strong our...
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FRANCINE ON S2: EPISODE 1
Last night’s episode was great to watch, although it did bring back all the old anxieties of Claire moving here to LA back to the forefront of my mind. Claire was my first love and sometimes I do miss that closeness with her, but I don’t miss the drama. I don’t miss the stress, and I definitely don’t miss the anxiety our relationship caused me. It’s a miracle all my hair didn’t fall...
August 2010
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ROSE ON S1: EPISODE 9
DINAHHHHH!!!!!! Here we are. My last blog for our last episode and boy was it a doozie :) Dinah Shore has finally arrived. With all of the ups and downs Nat and I have recently experienced, you would think I would’ve known better and maybe sit out this year’s Dinah….NOT!
Every year my friends and I rent a sick house with all of the amenities. We never stay at hotels. This gives...
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WHITNEY ON S1: EPISODE 9
What a way to go out….DINAH SHORE!!!! For anyone who has never attended this weekend of lesbian debauchery, I HIGHLY suggest it, at least once. Not only is it full of great music, parties, and poolside antics, but it provides a vehicle for an entire weekend where you can completely be yourself and feel comfortable no matter where in the world you come from. This was kind of a test in a way...
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JILL ON S1: EPISODE 9
Wow…final episode, final blog…final parting thoughts on what has turned into one of wildest journeys I’ve ever been on. Where to even begin… It’s probably best to address my mom’s surprise visit first and foremost, because till this day (three months later), I’m still in disbelief over her arrival. If my face didn’t paint an accurate enough picture of my shock, allow me to...
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Tracy On S1: Episode 9
Well, we’ve come full circle! First of all, thank you for letting us share our laughter and tears with you for the past nine weeks. It’s been an extremely cathartic experience, and I hope that there is somebody out there who has learned from all of our ups and downs. We’ve all grown from this process and if anything, hope that the message of EQUALITY resonates louder than all. On a side...
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NIKKI ON S1: EPISODE 9
It’s my last blog of the series, and how can I thank you enough for spending nine painful wedding planning weeks with my hair. LOL! I truly wish that you could have had more of a glimpse into our lives beyond our upcoming nuptials, but there’s only an hour to tell the stories of six women and as such, this is our story that was told.
Dinah Shore… Oh boy… Did I get myself in...
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JILL ON S1: EPISODE 8
Goooooing to Malibu and we’re gonna get maa-aa-aarried…
Finally! Signed, sealed and delivered. I have to say it was a bit of an exhausting process trying to research other venues. We saw, at most, two other homes, looked at a local hotel and reviewed a number of properties online…and nothing compared to the magnificence of that very first home.
I appreciate that Nik gave me...
